Love Deep as Worry

Trying to find one reason to stay alive
My eyes only see what would be better  without me
Little black voices drift like smoke in my mind
Secrets under pressure growing deeper confined

Demons breath tickles the back of my neck
Dead fingers trying to hug my heart black
A feeling in my head I can't explain
It's more than anxiety and deeper than pain

Sad eyes trying for a constant smile
Every motion, a mountain
Every step, a mile
Ignorance never sees past a grinning corpse
Depression alone will never warp

I've carved my heart and sliced my wrist
Ripped open veins with bleeding fists
But a love deep as worry will only save this mind
A prayer for rescue to leave it all behind

So there is kinda of a story that goes all with this: I wrote it for my friend after she told me she was Clinically Depressed. I never sent it to her though...just didnt want to bother her with it?